I almost killed 2 people here

I'm so young and full of life.
Nothing can hurt me.
I'm in such a hurry.
Of course there is traffic…
There always is.
But I am in a hurry.
And the guy in front of me is so slow.
I am not in my car.
After all, I am a nanny.
And the kids I care for…
well, an SUV or nothing.
The parents want them safe.
And I will keep them safe…
just as long as I can pass this car.
I don't need to see the corner.
I don't need to see anything.
I don't see that Nissan I am about to hit.
I'm in a hurry… BANG

Is that what was happening?
Is that what was in her head?
I assume it is, but I don't know.
I know the facts, 19, nanny, SUV.
I know the results.
I know she stood by that fence near the curve.
I know the feeling of an airbag going off (it hurts).
I know what the jaws of life sound like cutting a car.
Maybe I know too much.
It is so hard to describe it all.
The heat, the smells, the noise, the pain.
I came this way to avoid traffic today.
More than 10 years later.
This spot still gives me the willies.