Who is Rick?
One of those amusing days.
They seem to happen in divorce.
According to the agreement,
everything left here is mine.
Well the taxes were the last thing.
They were all that was left to be done.
Once they were done and ready there
was no reason to keep all the old
stuff that was jammed in a drawer.
I started emptying it.
It was all stuff she had left
on the counter in the kitchen.
After she left, I was the one
who tossed it all in the drawer
just to get it out of the way.
In this stack was a book
listing her appointments
from when she left me.
For the very first time,
and I am not kidding here,
I have never read any appointment
books or writings of hers because
I always respected her space,
in fact I was really just
curious to see if she had
scheduled telling me she was leaving me.
That would have been typical of her,
but no, May 6th 2007 just had our plans
for the day scribbled out.
Seeing I now owned this book
and also the fact that she left it
on the counter for me with old bills,
I read it just to see it.
Among the work schedules and
the 30 different budgets
I saw something interesting.
I think it was interesting in a morbid way.
It is not like I actually care anymore.
Everything is done and it is all in the past.
In fact I actually never have to deal with her again.
I'm sure it is not what anyone is thinking.
And even if it is, well good luck with that.
I will ask this here because this
is where I write things like this.
This forum is where I ask greater questions.
I know I do not get answers here,
what I get is clarity for having asked.
If an ex-wife of mine ever reads this, don't actually
answer because I have no desire to hear from you.
In fact that can't be the reason you left this for me.
It amuses me to think it is the reason,
but I don't think you are that creative.
So I will ask it here with no answer expected or desired,
Who the hell is Rick?
OMG UPDATE - 11-22-08.
Holy crap am I laughing right now.
It is 7 months since this entry and it is funny.
See, in divorce there is lots of anger around.
This was during all the tax stuff finishing.
I was VERY pissed off and mad at her for everything.
Sure, I hate her, but that was just rage and anger.
I didn't throw that book away that day.
I threw it in the cupboard out of sight.
I came across it today to see if I could glean anymore.
Just one last look before throwing it away forever.
I saw this entry and just laughed my ass off over it.
The "Rick" I was questioning was her brother.
Not only that, I was at that lunch that day.
Holy fucking crap is that funny to me.
I was so pissed off I could not see through my rage.
And now that I do see it clearly it is just freaking funny.
Well, funny to me anyways, don't care what you think.