Don't

Seriously, don't even try to understand
what is going on inside my head tonight.
Really, just don't bother.
I am going to list today as educational in my mind.
I am calling it that because I learned a lot tonight.
I have no intention of explaining in this entry.
The last cigar was for art.
This one, well this one was for me.
As I have said before in these pages,
I use these photos to freeze time.
I took this picture because I wanted
to freeze exactly how I felt in that moment.
That is what I did here.
Normally I say what I am feeling.
However, this one is just for me.
I know how the man in this photo feels,
because he is me.
I look into the eyes of this photo,
and I see something different than everyone else.
I know what it means.
Now that I have marked it in time,
I will know it the rest of my life.
I will have the memory of this photo to remind me.
It is now part of me.
Burned into me forever.
It can never be taken away from me.
No matter what.
Mine.