I’m hurting tonight.

With my world in chaos and tiredness pervading every thing I do, I’m already in a tearful and emotional state so I don’t need more anguish.

Someone (who shall remain nameless) has deliberately gone out of their way to tell me that they are destroying something very precious to me. How cruel can you get? About nine years ago, I invested a huge amount of time, love and money into a really special project. A project that I thought was worth the investment because it would stand the test of time and prove a lifetime’s use and beauty for me. The cost financially was about four months salary (not a small amount of money) and the cost to me was weeks and weeks of back-breaking labour and physical effort. Everything I have, I have earned through hard work and saving for, I've never been a credit seeker and never received financial help from anyone. It's not a case of easy-come, easy-go, it's a case of working hard and respecting the value of the fruits of my labour.

Now someone else, on a complete whim, has destroyed that toil. I feel as though someone has torn off a limb and tossed it onto the scrap heap. It may sound melodramatic but there you go. That’s what’s happened and that’s how I feel.

There are, of course, many poor souls worse off than me tonight, the news from New Orleans continues to shock and chill us to the core. However, in my world, this is close to melt down.

Roll on the middle of next week…….

Two years ago we had the folks round and last year I was surrounded by greed.