For What It’s Worth

To all my friends (and family), both new and old.....

I have received a few emails lately asking where I have been. Some of them have a clear understanding of exactly who I am. Some, not so much. Please allow me to clarify.

When you become friends with me, unless something horrible happens, expect to remain friends with me forever. I am a very faithful, loyal friend. I will do anything you need me to do without expecting much in return, unless it has anything to do with gas receipts at Speedway, then I expect much in return (Rik...cough cough). While I am very loyal to my friends, I am not necessarily a good communicator. I am notorious for putting way more on my plate than I am able to handle at any given moment. I do not learn from this and continue to do it time and time again. When that happens I may not talk to you for a couple days. Or months. Perhaps even years. My feelings for you do not diminish at all during that time. We will pick up 4 months later just like it was yesterday.

I will not remember your birthday. Ever. I will try, but it won’t happen. I will write it down, but I will misplace it. You may be hurt, and I understand this, but unfortunately it is just who I am. Not purposely and I think that makes a big difference.

There isn’t a week that goes by that I don’t think of you. At least once during that week I will say to myself “I should send an email or call” but ADHD will kick in and I will move on to other things.

I will say, “I will call tomorrow.” I will say this over the course of several “tomorrows” until it becomes such an abstract thought that tomorrow doesn’t come. My true intention is to call....just doesn’t work out that way.

It is a character flaw. It’s just who I am. If you are one that needs to be reassured of our friendship, then this is going to be a rocky relationship. Just know that I may drop off the face of the Earth for a while, but we can pick up right where we left off. THAT is the beauty of a true friendship.

I’m not saying it’s right or wrong.....just saying it’s who I am.

I’ll call you tomorrow.