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09-NOV-2005

9th November 2005 - crossing bridges

Last night I had a number of conversations with people that made me feel very lucky to have such wonderful friends. Despite my work woes there has been a stream of people offering help, kindness and support, which is really cool.

David had stern words with me for my posting because he feels that however grim things are at work, there are many things in our lives for which we should be very thankful. Heís right of course and we did make some significant progress on the Ďgrand planí yesterday so whatever happened at work, my thoughts should really be on the plan and making sure it works.

Ian Clowes suggested something to me and I thought Iíd make it my theme for the next week or so. His idea was designed to keep my mind on the positive and away from the overwhelming negativity that has been engulfing my thoughts of late. The idea? Simple really Ė think of the ten things in my life Iím most proud of.

So, here is no 1 Ė itís crossing the bridge into Cornwall (even though the photo is actually of the reverse, I thought I could get away with it). Itís symbolic for the most difficult and momentous decision of my life, to leave behind the South East and move away to somewhere where there will (after Christmas) be less stress and more time for my home life.

Iíve never been a Ďbrave heartí Ė never a risk-taker yet here I am, throwing away all of my security and everything Iíve ever fought for to follow a dream of a better, happier future in a place where there is magic and sparkle. A place where a traffic jam holds you up for five minutes and there are no angry people Ė at least no permanently angry people. A place where we know our neighbours and feel a part of a community rather than feeling as though we were in a hostile land.

Itís not just the place though, itís the time. Iíll have time to grow our food again, after letting it all slide so badly in the last couple of years. Iíll have time to dedicate to photography, writing and cooking. Iíll have time for the people I love Ė to walk my own dogs and to be with David instead of being in an hotel room miles from all that I hold dear. Most of all and most badly needed, Iíll have time for ME.

Iím hugely proud of this decision. I feel as though sometime in the not-too-distant future my life will return to one that gives me pleasure and joy, rather than constant worry and pressure.

I have to hang on with every part of my being to knowing the goal of the grand plan and to believing that it is attainable and we will, soon, soon, soon, be living our dreams. For now, I need to take each day as it comes as Rene said. I need to remind myself that each dayís end is a day closer to the end of the year and the prospect of a better life next year.

Today I go to face the music in my office and have the prospect of three days of crushing stress BUT within that even there is some hopeÖ..today I will welcome to the team a lady who will release me from some of the stresses of trying to do three jobs all at once. Sheís joining the company after Christmas and comes today to spend some time with us and meet a few folks. Hurrah.

Today I have crossed a real bridge, over the Tamar and away from my home but more importantly I have crossed a metaphorical bridge to leave behind the problems associated with the last few months and to move forward safe in the knowledge that whatever happens, Iíve got a bright future.

By the way, this bridge was built by Isambard Kingdom Brunel and was opened in 1859!

Last year I was smashing things and two years ago, I was dreaming of chrome!

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Michael Todd Thorpe17-Nov-2005 19:05
It's the bridge home, Linda!
By the way, I think you're very brave in all this. Sort of like a Tolkien character, not wanting the adventure but the adventure brings the sweetest rewards...
Rene Hales15-Nov-2005 22:04
Loving where you are and finding magic and sparkle there is so precious.--Rene
Beth 11-Nov-2005 10:54
You will rise phoenix like from the ashes! Power to you for being brave and true to yourself and following your heart. And remember the loving words of Talmud: 'We do not see things as they are, we see them as we are'. Here's to you. Love Beth xoxoxoox
Beth 11-Nov-2005 10:53
You will rise phoenix like from the ashes! Power to you for being brave and true to yourself and following your heart. And remember the loving words of Talmud: 'We do not see things as they are, we see them as we are'. Here's to you. Love Beth xoxoxoox
Guest 11-Nov-2005 07:57
Cool shot through a window!
Cindy Flood10-Nov-2005 01:08
Good luck with the rest of your life and your bright future...one day at a time.
Lee Rudd09-Nov-2005 20:17
I LOVE this bridge - whatever way you go over it :)
Eric Hewis09-Nov-2005 19:17
And when David's Billingham song hits the charts your future will be assured :-)
Bill Miller09-Nov-2005 19:03
or the Bridge over Troubled Waters. Groan :-)
Guest 09-Nov-2005 16:36
David is wise!
Ray :)09-Nov-2005 16:24
Linda - I love railway bridges and this is one of my favourites. And I think Ian's idea is a great one - I could list many things that you could photograph in the coming week. Dogs, food, beaches, family run shops, empty beaches, new found friends - I could go on, but will wait for your diary postings. Who knows, there might be one of DM too.......
Take Care