I have thought about this day for years

Actually I have thought for decades.
I wondered if this day would happen.
And now it is here.
I am the last in my family to arrive.
I wonder if it mattered to them.
I wonder if they even noticed.
Today I am the same age as my...
Wow, what to call him?
I don't want to hear the bull crap.
Shit, I'll call him my sperm donor.
I am the same age he was when he died.
Right to the day, today is the day.
I have made better decisions than him.
I am more of a man than he ever was.
I'm proud of myself for what I've done.
I'm glad the apple fell VERY far from the tree.