Heading down the stretch

Are these too morbid?
I wonder that as I post them.
They feel like they are from a different life.
Not just long ago but totally different.
I think they are actually both.
It is from long ago (December 2006).
The whole "marriage thing" was nearing its end.
This one was from a series of self-portraits.
I feel a little sad when I look at it.
Mostly because it was not anything particular.
It was more of an all around feeling.
The strange part is that I did not understand it.
I didn't have the insight to know what was wrong.
I could not see what was going on in front of me.
It is probably good that I could not see it.
If I had I might have done something that would change it.
At the time I would have felt that would be best.
In hindsight preventing it would have been a huge bummer.
Sometimes a bit of pain helps you move along in life.
I did not even know how stuck I was at that time.
This picture was more than 2 years ago though.
I would not give up what I have learned for anything.
That pain was just part of the process.
I had to go through it to get where I am now.
And where I am now is pretty damn cool.

Not that this would happen, but here is another view on it.
If my ex ever saw this she would want to ask "those questions".
We have all had them from ex-relationships asking about it.
"It was not all that bad, was it"?
What they are asking for is validation.
It is really a trick question though.
There is no right answer.
If you say it was all bad, they feel justified.
It ended because you are a butt hole.
And if you say no, it was not all bad,
they feel justified they did not waste their time.
The truth probably lies in between somewhere.
However, at some point there was more bad than good.
Such was life in December 2006 for me.
And I just didn't know it yet.