December 14, 2008
do I deserve trust
for how I am now
much better than I was before
is forgiveness the key
or is it time
can trust ever be recovered
truly?
May 12, 2007
news story yesterday
morality, a result of brain chemistry
disturbing repercussions to consider
Darwinian changes upon us
April 27, 2007
on the surface
I will be polite
inside...
you are selfish
fucking selfish
how long do you think I will put up with it
fuck off
and have a nice day
April 26
destruction of self
how can a mind contemplate such a thing
a precarious balance
between reason and emotion
a lifelong battle for some
a fleeting glimpse into darkness for others
if it can't be, why should it
caring drifts away
emptiness is left
the battle begins
April 13, 2007
sometimes it feels better not to see so clearly
when happiness is taken away
the mind copes by reshaping the past
to a form which closely resembles the truth
a form which ultimately meets acceptance
and then life goes on
March 26, 2007
it's the simple things
that I remember at the end of the day
her waiting outside for me
arriving home at the end of the workday
lounging in the splendid air of springtime
shedding cherry blossom trees creating snow globe visions
a cat cries for attention
a hole dug by the dog
conversation about happiness together
my partial detachment from it all
me outside of me
wondering if things ever really will be
simple after all
March 22, 2007
has my fate chosen me or have I chosen it
sometimes it seems easier to just give up
what is the worst that can happen
who am I kidding
fate has me by the throat
March 21, 2007
fifty years on
what will be of this place
what will be of me
is it important to be remembered
who will remember those who have passed here
a dark truth awaits
happiness resides in avoiding the answer
March 11, 2007
I am the good that I do
nothing penetrates the soul as much
as seeing one's good grow in the world
March 7, 2006
a split second
too many to count
beauty here and then gone
I don't think she saw me
I will forever see her
March 4
sunday, the day of rest
the world goes on doing what it will do
leaves falling, spring waiting to renew
why is it that religious men
inventing this day of rest
cannot see beyond their blessed conflicts
causes of their own creation
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life goes on beyond these men
mocking them in their pettiness
February 1
no work today
weather shut down the city
it's not so bad
we just collectively decided to be lazy
time to catch up on some reading
enjoy the moment
these times we steal for ourselves
are times we remember most fondly
the details fade with time
but the beauty of the moment remains
