13-MAR-2007
Spring trees
Extra and more light wakes them up. The roots start sucking up when it gets warmer. We took a bunch of kids to a maple sugar presentation yesterday. Spring is my favorite time of the year.
I wake up in the spring too.
I probably start sucking something up too. Not sure of what it is.
I keep pulling the tree branches down to make certain that they have buds on their ends.
I want to be sure that they are waking up.
07-MAR-2007
A case of you
A case of you
Just before our love got lost you said
I am as constant as a northern star
And I said, constant in the darkness
Wheres that at?
If you want me Ill be in the bar
On the back of a cartoon coaster
In the blue tv screen light
I drew a map of where we were
Oh where we were
And your face sketched on it twice
Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
Oh and you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
And I would still be on my feet
Oh Id still be on my feet
Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
Im frightened by the devil
And Im drawn to those ones that aint afraid
I remember that time that you told me, you said
Love is touching souls
Surely you touched mine
Cause part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time
Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
And you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
Still Id be on my feet
And still be on my feet
I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
And she said
Color go to him, stay with him if you can
Oh but be prepared to bleed
Oh but you are in my blood youre my holy wine
Oh and you taste so bitter, bitter and so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
Still Id be on my feet
Id still be on my feet
Joni
04-MAR-2007
Footprints
Everyone leaves some footprints of our walks. Memories are like the details in my old sneakers have left in the way too much snow in my driveway which also has cracks and wintering weed seeds.
Will I remember all the memories to share with him?
28-DEC-2006
Best of ?
I can't pick just four pictures. It's too hard.
Four has always been a friendly number for me but it is not working. Just do the picking and get it over with, I know. Can't make decisions and then when they are made an orgasmic feeling overcomes after it is done.
Come on she says, I am waiting for my friend to come outside to play. It's December but it might as well be spring, the weather is so warm.
Tomorrow I will choose. There is always tomorrow.
27-DEC-2006
Too many gizmos
on the camera. Playing with the timer thing. Couldn't figure out how to turn it OFF.
This is a rented lens, trying to find if I really want to spend that kind of money. Everyone keeps saying that zooms are more practical, but I keep finding that the primes give me more of what I like. Less practical but they make better pictures.
For me anyway.
I've always been different.
25-DEC-2006
Our big day
Most days it is dark down in the box in the basement in the old hutch. It's warm and dry and snug. No bugs to mention and no loud noises. Lack of disturbances is desired by many but when this is all you have it get's pretty much the same and without stimulation.
Anyway, today was our big day, should not complain. She opened the old heavy drawer and grabbed the box. The loud sounds were a delight. Unwrapped the tissue paper and pulled us out. We didn't even mind the hot water and suds to remove the dust that had creeped into our being.
We are still sitting on the table even after the tablecloth has been thrown into the laundry with food crud waiting to be washed.
Tomorrow most likely we will go back.
Long napping. Her oft-wanted dream. Today was fun, she even put us in front of her camera.
Aren't there anymore days we can come out?
17-DEC-2006
Can't find the presents I've hidden
Does anyone else have this problem? I always feel better when you do. It's hard to be the only one.
I bought some things in haste and panic some weeks ago and stuffed them in some closet in the near perimeter, but I'll be damned if I can find them tonight. I figure tonight is the best night to be rummaging through closets and more as the kids will sleep tonight. Tomorrow night they will not.
Six, Seven, Nine, Ten and Ten are ages that allow such skepticism about the whole package of events. How the hell does he get into our house when there is no chimney?
How the hell do I find football cards for the middle girl? I gave that up with the last ex-husband.
God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen and ladies who cannot find what they have hidden away.
Even the eve of the eve is anxiety ridden in this age.
Can't find my way home, where are Stevie Winwood and my presents?
22-DEC-2006
Winter Solstice
Shortest day of the year. Longest day in many other respects. Where's my treat? How come the other class gets to play today? Why didn't we get to wear our pajamas to school? It is not a fair world.
Just managed to catch the sun as it disappeared down the horizon across the street from my house. Daddy would say that when you are down there is no way to go but up. Now the days will get longer.
No snow here, just rain and mushy ground. What the heck will the kids do with the sleds they are getting for Christmas? Wait for snow, of course.
Just like the rest of us. Waiting for the good stuff and the good moment.
All this time alive and still haven't figured out or collected the biochemistry necessary to know that every moment is all that we have.
Is it spring yet?
24-NOV-2006
Fast Swell Color
Only thing I could think to add to this sign is the word chocolate.
I love Neon signs. Stopped late at night after driving back and then going back again to get it. To be a photographer you have to be much more spontaneous than I am. They probably just snap at first glance.
Me, I look, swoon and keep going. Then I think to myself, geez I should've stopped and took a picture. Then I start to quiz myself as to why I didn't stop and then I ask myself how much effort would it be to go back. And then I ask, who is going to be bugged by my going back to take the picture.
After nine more similiar questions I finally go back and take the picture and have that feeling of satisfaction.
Do the guys who take the picture at first look have that same feeling?
Who cares what feeling they have. Should I?
Should've had chocolate on the sign somewhere.
23-NOV-2006
One decade ago, one decade from now?
Ten years ago, I had finished my last day of school in anticipation of the birth of my son. It was a scheduled c-section, my third so I knew the birthday already. I had two kids, this new one would be the third. I had six dogs and a few cats. A stray dog came into our yard and initiated a dog fight in which my beloved sheltie took much pain. The vet saved her that weekend and my oldest kid babied her while I gave birth. It was a weekend to remember. Pack behavior in dogs is an amazing event.
Today I have seven kids and two dogs and one cat. And lots of bikes in the garage. Most are cheap Huffy's and store brands.
Ten years from now, I envision no dogs, maybe the cat who won't get off my lap now, a different job and less guilt.
21-NOV-2006
Red Sky at Morning
Sailors take warning.
It was a beautiful morning sky. Light is in very short supply here. Colored light is an even more surprising treat.
18-NOV-2006
Saturday Sister
First born and oldest sister came over today. Always a special moment. She managed to fix the PS2 memory card disaster. I knew that 82kb was smaller than 8MB but had not the background knowledge to address the meltdown of two days ago. She always has this uncanny way of fixing things and making them smooth.
The picture is of the youngest sister up against oldest sister's knee.
Comforting.