I shot this picture before the rest of my day fell apart….

OK – so you know I’m a die-hard Spurs fan. There is little or nothing I’d not do for my precious club. I am a shareholder and an ex-of-many-seasons-season-ticket-holder. In fact, I’ve been going to Spurs since 1976 and have a love for the club and its history. that I have documented here many times.

Tonight then, given that I can’t be at the game, what am I doing? I’m on the sofa, all my Spurs Girl gear on, team shirt (second team shirt of the day – the one I put on first thing was dirty before kick-off so I got another out, lucky pants etc etc…..

As anyone in the UK who is in the least bit interested in footie knows, there has been a deeply disturbing story unfolding at Spurs since the beginning of the season. There has been a constant undermining of the manager by the Board – it’s been going on all season. I must say that I believe with all my heart that you can’t perform to the best of your abilities if you think your job is about to be given to someone else. So, it’s hardly surprising that we’re doing badly really. I can’t believe we’re doing badly because our manager is incapable of doing well – c’mon, who seriously can? We’ve been 5th the last 2 seasons in a row, we’ve been in Europe 2 seasons in a row. These are not the achievements of a team and a manager who are not good at what they do.

So, I want to say two things tonight…….

I LOVE MARTIN JOL and MARTIN JOL LOVES ME

(Sorry – you have to be on the terraces at WHL to get that one.)

You see, I can’t bear the fact that he could leave thinking we’re all as devious, stupid and nasty as our Board clearly are – we’re not. As a fan of over thirty years, as a fan who has been loyal and true and won’t ever hear a bad word about the team, I believe this is a grave day for our club and a sad indictment of the Board’s meddling in the footballing of the club.

Martin, the team you have built and inspired has made me a very happy woman. I’ve seen us play like I’ve never seen before and I’ve been proud to stand in the Park Lane and sing…

‘I LOVE MARTIN JOL and MARTIN JOL LOVES ME’

– if the Board’s behaviour is bitter then your leadership and your dignity are certainly ‘sweet as a nut’. I hope that you don’t think badly of us all as you leave WHL tonight. Your time at WHL has been 'golden' for me and for many others.

Me? I'm gutted, sick as a parrot and all of the other footballing cliches for someone who's completely devastated at this turn of events.

Last year, oh how optimistic I was! I thought I'd have 2000 images on sale by Christmas - I don't think I'm going to achieve that by this Christmas, let alone last.....even though I have been breaking my own record with sales in the last couple of weeks - well, something has to be going right in my world. My current tally is about 650 images I think and it's bloody hard work on top of the day job.