5 weeks ago today, I joined 7,000,000 other unfortunate souls in the ranks of the unemployed. It is the first time in my entire working life that I have been in this position. I do not like it one bit. In the past 5 weeks I have ran the gammut of feelings and emotions, from intense anger, sadness, depression, guilt, and everything in between. My search continues on a daily basis for a new employment opportunity. I have decided that trying to digitally capture a little bit of the journey will be a good outlet for me and possibly help lift a little of the heaviness. We shall see. Originally I intended for it to be "serious" and somewhat photojournalistic but I quickly realized that trying to do this alone immediately lost the realness and became theatrical and staged. It is impossible for me to show you my intense feeling of depression when I first have to get up out of bed, put clothes on, setup my camera gear, compose a shot, set all parameters on the camera, push the shutter release, then rush over to my "scene" and try posing again before the shutter actuates. By the time all of that happens, my feeling has changed to that of a director or an actor, and the whole shot is a fabrication. It does lift my spirits though and allows me briefly to think about something better. That is why I am doing it. If you read all of this, I commend you.
James