geez that's sad. I have buried too many. Seen too much sadness . . yet at the same time, seen great joy with these alley cats. Though I am primarily a dog guy, I feel for the under dog. . . . The cats I know are ceratainly "underdogs". Sounds like Toots knew your love, gave you love. Taught you love. That's cool . . . . and he experienced joy being with you. I wish you the best. I hope ole Toots is playing in a field somewhere in a cloud hanging out, waiting for you..