I’ve had a strange today – in normal circumstances I’d say nothing much to report in my life except that my nose has been on the grindstone all day….except for one short exception. I had a meeting this morning with a man who is a virtual stranger (a Mr Motivator) and I made a complete fool of myself in front of him.

How? I hear you cry in shock, horror and amazement! Well, because he said something nice to me and I blubbed all over him. Pathetic huh?

He said to me – ‘you clearly look after everyone else but who looks after you?’ My only response was floods of tears and the total breakdown of my professionalism. To be honest that cheeses me off a bit – well more than a bit actually. It cheeses me off to my very core because I pride myself on always being positive and energetic and I felt so small, alone and afraid. When my ex-boss Christine made me a Director, she said to me ‘think about it before accepting because it’s a lonely place, there is no-one to share your problems with’. She was right. I wonder if other people feel like me? I wonder if they worry about every decision they make and everything they do?

So tonight, I feel tied up with guilt for letting my guard down and falling apart in front of a stranger. I wonder if you can get fired for crying on the job? I hope not!