I got a call from my sister today telling me that mom passed away. I left from work immediately to go to Mom's place.
When I arrived the EMS people were still there and the coroner was on the phone with the fire captain. It looked like she
had probably died sometime yesterday. She was alone in the house, just her cat for company.
No one had heard from Mom since sunday and my sister and her husband had gone to check on her.
Mom had been in poor health for a while now with a bad heart. I've been expecting something like this for some time,
but it still came as a shock. I went into business mode immediately to take care of the arrangements. I'm good at that.

I've been dealing with all the usual stuff.
Did I tell her I loved her the last time I talked to her?
Could I have spent more time with her?
What could I have done differently?
The guilt of the living.

If you have a mom or dad or other loved one you haven't talked to in a while,
go call them right now and tell them you love them.
And spend some time with them.
Now.


Goodbye Mom. I love you. I miss you.