Lucy Potts - no longer with us. Had her put to sleep August 2003 - she was 14 and I'd had her since we rescued her from the dog shelter as a nearly grown puppy. During her last months she was losing bladder control, very lumpy, walking badly, going blind, going deaf, had an insatiable greed for ANYTHING she could eat and didn't really seem to enjoy life very often. Writing this on 29 December 2003 and still I wonder if I did the right thing by her. Should I have waited longer? I miss her so much. I'm a grown man and still I shed tears over my old smelly dog. She peed on the carpet when the vet came to the house to do the deed. Was it coincidence or did she know what was about to happen. Man I've tortured myself over that one. The truth is I feel like I killed her before her time and no matter what I'm told I can't convince myself otherwise.