My bone marrow now seems to be infested with cancer, too:
Gemzar does not work (tumour markers are increasing despite chemo) and my blood parameters (leukos etc) are ominously low, even after only one infusion of chemo and neupogen injections.
The MDs want to have me in sterile room for high dose chemo and stem cell transplant (my own stem cells) as soon as possible - most probably the week after the next.
Sometimes I think maybe this is all just a bad dream...
That's life, I guess.