My anxiety discomfort was really intense yesterday, and I felt very debilitated. I know that my aunt’s death coming so close to my having to give up work has just made me get worse. But I have to keep telling myself this is just a bad phase, and soon I will experience some good days, when I can get out and about again.

It is true that the trick is to distract yourself, so that your mind does not give the negative thoughts that feed the tension. Photographing my tulip yesterday helped, as I was concentrating so hard on getting the light right on a project I enjoy so much. However, I was still pretty jittery and calming myself down ready for bed was a prolonged affair.

I aim to take a gentle 20 minute walk each day to help me along, and yesterday I just could not manage that. Well, I did, but after midnight! I was not aware how cold the wind was out there in the early hours, especially holding a metal tripod!

Anyway, I played with this shot at a nearby bus stop. And whilst I was making this shot, some guy walked by. Hell, what was he thinking I was doing at 1.16am....lol.




Photoshop:
Cropped and Resized
Converted to Grayscale


On March 3 last year; ‘Mug Shot’