無疑的，小黑跟小白是我藏在心底的一段殘缺記憶，在餵食牠們好長一段時間後，牠們無端消失了，走上了也許是流浪狗最不堪與恐怖的最後旅程！假如真的是這樣，我很遺憾沒陪牠們走完，或許該說自責沒有盡到照顧牠們保護牠們的責任！

說到小黑+小白，牠倆給我的印記是不可分的！打從初遇起，牠倆就廝混在一塊，見其一必見另一身影，牠們兩個大男生就這樣作伙勇闖流浪路！牠倆的關係對我來說很具吸引力，原來，狗除了對主人（人類）有至死不渝的忠心與愛之外，狗與狗之間也有堅定的友誼！

與小黑+小白失聯已超過十個多月，只要是知悉台灣這塊土地上流浪動物處境的人大概都心底有個譜：小黑+小白多半是兇多吉少！時至今日我仍在老地方餵食流浪狗，一樣的場景但熟悉的身影早不在，有時還有不切實際的想法期待牠倆出現在下個路口，或是從哪塊空地的草叢中鑽出，朝我飛奔而來！

至今我仍不清楚為何自己對小黑+小白有著這樣深的依戀與不捨，牠倆不過是千千萬萬條在台灣街頭上討生活的流浪狗成員，在絕大說數人眼裡，牠倆既不起眼又不可愛，也許還會嫌牠倆有股狗臭味還是會傳染給人的人畜共通惡疾！但我很清楚：只要從牠倆注視我的眼神，以及牠倆用肢體對我熱情到幾近魯莽的衝撞，就知道我在牠倆心目中的地位以及牠倆對我的信任！也許是覺得有負牠倆的那片赤誠吧？心底總感內疚，沒有為牠倆再作多點什麼，也許除了餵食以及在牠倆身體有恙時讓牠們服藥外，該更積極的為牠們找尋未來！

這很難，自己力單勢薄，總不能將所有的流浪狗都接回家？至於送養，我當然也試過，一來成犬很難送養，二來………我想這才是關鍵，可歎小黑+小白不是名犬，假如牠倆一隻是拉不拉多一隻是黃金獵犬，我猜根本不消我每日得到重劃區餵食，早就被人誘補轉賣或收養了！

也許很想牠們吧？今天，壓抑住濃濃的心結，在資料夾中尋覓牠倆曾經有過的鮮活，上傳網路，算是對牠倆的追憶吧？


In my photo albums storing the images of stray dogs, some of them are files that I avoid to open. My heart seems to be torn if I browse them. “Blacky + Whity” belongs to one of them. From the original meet to communication-loss with them, these images record some details they both live.

Undoubtedly, Blacky and Whity were the incomplete memory concealed in my heart. They disappeared after feeding them for a long period. They might step on the most unendurable and horrible trip like other stray dogs, cruel termination by people. If it was, I would feel sorry to be absent when they were dying or blame myself without taking responsibility to protect them.

In my memory, these two guys were never separate. From the first sight to them, they both played together. One always kept company with another. Both males struggled as stray dogs. They deeply attracted me because of the relationship between these two males. I found there was strong friendship existing between two dogs except loyalty and love from dogs for human beings.

It has been over ten months since I have not seen them both. Anyone familiar with the circumstance of stray dogs of Taiwan almost can guess that their destinies are not optimistic. I still feed stray dogs at the same place but the familiar friends have gone. Sometimes an unrealistic whimsy, meeting them both on the next intersection or running to me from weed, appears.

Maybe I remember them deeply today. Repressing my sorrow, I search the vivacity of them in my computer and put these pictures took before on the Internet, a reminiscence fort them!