I’m feeling really prickly tonight despite my files being judged good enough at today’s moderation. It comes from being exhausted and ratty I think. People keep saying to me “it’s OK now, the hard work is over, you can relax…” BUT IT ISN’T and therefore I CAN’T.

I’ve still got half-a-dozen reports to write and as a novice each one is taking forever. I’ve got to plan mega loads of lessons for next week and despite everyone telling me that it gets quicker and easier, I'm not yet managing either. I’ve got to write my own report and send it to my tutor for her to feed bits into the one she writes. I’ve got to pick up on a couple of minor niggles from my moderation. All of these things have to be done by Monday at the latest and some have earlier deadlines so the suggestion that I can take my foot off the gas just seems cruel.

There is a glimmer of light in as much as that was the last hurdle to jump and there now seems little to stop me from becoming a qualified teacher unless I seriously mess up by throttling a child or start running round the school swearing like a trooper. I’m pretty sure that I can keep the lid on both things (she says with her fingers crossed behind her back). I’m sure that when I’m less tired I’ll see it as a positive even though for now all I want to do is poke people with sharp sticks.